Smoker Vs Lover

I was addicted to her and he was to cigarattes.We were terror on road, even while driving in one hand I had phone to talk to her  and his one hand was occupied with cigarette while driving. I told him he is wasting his life by smoking and he replied that I am wasting my life with that girl. We never paid heed to each other’s advice.

Eventually we both proved right. I landed up with a broken heart and he with infected lungs.  However, it was not easy to stop.  I kept on following the girl and he kept on smoking. Then our friends and family came to rescue. I had counseling and he had rehabilitation.

I thought getting over love was the most difficult thing in the world. Then after seeing him, I realized quitting cigarettes is even more difficult. Every time I went out of home, I saw girls here and there but no one was like her, I never found anyone like her. So I never got tempted towards any girl. But he, oh man he saw people smoking around him. In addition, some were smoking his favorite brand.

Whenever I had a emotional breakdown and I tried getting in touch with her, she never replied. So eventually, I accepted the fact that she is gone. However, life was tough for him, whenever he had a breakdown he could easily go to market, pay money and get his cigarette. Therefore, it needed more strength and determination for him to quit smoking.

P.S.  Rise and fall in love but do not fall for cigarettes. Ending up with a broken heart is better than infected lungs. Spread love not smoke.

Phir Teri Kahani Yaad Aayi

Ek dheemi si aahat hui

To tu yaad aayi

Jab poocha kisi ne pyaar ke baare mein

To tu yaad aayi

Guzraa jab uss raaste se

To tu yaad aayi

Aankhen ki jab band

To tu yaad aayi

Jab bhi Khushi hui

To tu yaad aayi

Jab bhi roya main

To tu yaad aayi

Dhadka ye aaj dil

Phir teri kahani yaad aayi

-          Rauuullll

19-07-2011

Right here waiting for you

“ Kahi to, kahi to hogi wo , duniyaan jaha tu mere saath hai.

Jahaan main jahaan tu , aur jahaa bas tere mere jasbaat hai.

                                    Hogi jahaa subah teri palkon ki kiron mein

                                    Lori jahaa chand ki sune teri baahon mein.

Jaane na kaha vo duniyaan hai, jaane na vo hai bhi ya nahi

                                    Janaa meri zindagi mujhse itni khafa nahi.”

Every guy has a dream girl in his mind. Most of my close girl-friends have told me about their dream guy, so I guess I can say every girl has a dream guy in her mind. I have got this advice from many to separate the dream from reality and live the reality. And as per them the reality is in real life you don’t get a dream girl. I have argued over this a lot; have discussed it zillion times with some of you guys.  Somewhere I understand what you are saying is right but then some part of me is still unconvinced about that.

Dreams as per I understand are something which we wish to have in our life. So if I read it other way around, I dream of a girl almost every night, so that means I wish to have her in my life. No no , the biggest problem of Rauuullll  isn’t solved yet, there is a catch. I haven’t seen her face in my dream.  Being an optimist,  I see that as a good thing . The good thing is I don’t see a face, I don’t see anyone related to my past in her. Yes , I don’t see THE girl in her.

OK, she is not her but I admit she is close to her as in she has to be the girl which I talked about I think in my second post “Category of Girls “. I don’t think that girl can be termed as hypothetical. I don’t know the feeling which I once experienced in my life was of love/crush/flirt/lust etc but I truly remember that feeling was amazing and pure.

I always knew she deserved someone better than me, am not her level in terms of looks , intellectually I guess I was close if not better J . After that day, I have been told that I made some blunders, termed stupid by some and very stupid by others.  I don’t hesitate even a bit to accept the fact that being a very normal guy, I guess god had been little kind to me to have met/linked/dated/liked few girls and it was kind of bold decision by me not to move ahead. I admit every time I took that decision I was damn scared , scared that am leaving this girl and in future  I might not find my ‘ dream girl ‘, so I might end up alone. But I always took that decision because I never wanted to be that bad guy to pass time waiting for THE girl. I could not kill my consciousness.

Its been long time now I am waiting for her. I have seen others moving on and finding someone and I feel happy for them. I have seen others leaving me and moving on and being happy, but I do not feel bad about it because I do believe life is a leveler and they are actually on the path to finally feel the same pain that I did when they left me.

I do believe that its better to be single than being in a relationship which is not from heart. But at same time I do accept the fact that I was cautioned by some of you that it is getting little tougher approaching mid-twenties and still being single. J L

Ticking the resolutions

Its been 5-6 years now I have been doing this resolution thing. In last week of December, I spend some time in thinking what all I wish to do next year and note them down on paper or document. This time also I had done the same. Surprisingly unlike last year where I had made only one resolution, this year I ended up writing 15 resolutions. Yeah, it’s a big list J .

For a minute, I thought it’s crazy. 15 resolutions, that’s a lot. Then a good thought came in my mind to counter it. It occurred to me that I have so much to look forward to this year.

6 months over in this year and am done with half of the New Year resolutions. Oh yeah … am making progress on 7^th of the 15 resolutions ( with the 15^th one being to complete 7 of the 14 resolutions , am not counting that in calculations ) J.

I started working on the 7^th resolution a month back and I guess it will be ON atleast for this year end. I have finally stopped eating Non-vegetarian food. I had been trying to do this now for over a year. No no, there is nothing religious sentiment or family pressure attached to do this. It was just a thought which was always in my mind to stop eating non-veg but being at home I could never do that , as dad , sisters n brother-in laws n even my nephews n niece eat it a lot . So more often than not I too end up eating with them. So I guess once am back home I might end up again eating non-veg but atleast till that time I wont eat it .

The left over 7 resolutions are little tricky and tough. Let’s see what happens to them. :D