The ugly face of this world

Three barbaric incidents in last couple of days have really surprised, shocked me. Two in the developing region of India- subcontinent and the third in developed region - US. Truly goes to show that the anti-social elements are present all over the world.

The first one - the attack and killing of little school children in US, the second one - killing of UN activists giving polio drops in Pakistan and the third - gangrape of a girl in Delhi in a moving bus. 

All these incidents makes me feel angry and at the same time scared, its not only the terrorists which we need to be scared of now - if seems now even a common man walking on a road can suddenly pull out a gun and start firing. I dont know how we can stop this completely, but am sure its high time we need to do something about it.

Being a Delhite, I urge government to take a serious action against those rapists - please hang them, they dont deserve to live even for one minute. Please do it as soon as possible before a common man forgets about this incident - we should ensure that it registers in mind of those uncivilised people that they cant afford to take law in their hands. 

I am not reacting to this just because it happened in my city, am reacting to it because I do feel bad about the situation of safety of women in our country, I feel bad because I seriously dont see it changing in near future too given the level of illiteracy, political influence in our country and sad state of the way government deals with all these issues. In addition, the sorry state of Indian media which does not know how to be effective and the stupid TV serials where women are either shown to be weak or bad (using a soft word as its my resolution not to use foul language). I believe bollywood can also play its part by making good movies and not promoting some idiotic women who are just looking for cheap publicity.

Yes, being a Delhite am ashamed of the incident that happened in Delhi and I can just say sorry for what happened, though I understand it does not mean anything and nothing can now bring peace to that girl and her family. I am not going to defend my city by saying that anti-social elements are in every city, but will just like to say that there are good people in Delhi which are in majority and hopefully by good police control and timely intervention by government Delhi will be a safe city in near future. 

Another Year…Another Step…

Wow..2012 went seriously like a flash. I still get a feeling that it was only yesterday that I was watching Sherlock Holmes movie when the year 2012 started and today am planning for 2013. Above all, I have managed to survive one complete year in Chennai. Am proud of myself..haha..

I think professionally and personally am satisfied with what I have done in 2012. Its been good last three years professionally as I have been focused and finally I believe I have taken steps in right direction. Personally, as I wished at the end of 2011 for 2012 to be a non- happening year, I almost managed to achieve that. A small hiccup here and there as always, but overall I did well in this regard.

2013 as I mentioned earlier, is a year for which I have been planning for long. Am too excited and at the same time nervous. It will definitely be a year I will remember for life. A year where I will be ready to take few risks and hopefully be rewarded for the same. It will be a year where some of the dreams will die as dreams, but at the same time some new dreams will evolve. A year where I will turn realist from being an idealist. J

Its been a mentally tiring 2012 for me and am looking for a big break to recharge my batteries for 2013. All of sudden Christmas and New Year has become my favorites as am getting a two-week holiday break. Am looking forward to spending time at home with family and friends, playing cricket, watching movies, gaming nights, parties, sleeping and ironically of course studying (I understand it is now integral part of my professional field).

Wish you all Merry Christmas and a very Happy New Year. God bless everyone….

Love for some, destiny for others

She again asked "what is it about me that you love the most", they had been together for over a year and she had asked this question many times and everytime he just smiled and said "i love you because i know you" and never explained this statement further. As always Shaurya's answer amused Anamika but she loved hearing this statement so kept on asking him this again from time to time. 

It was not love at first sight for them. They were poles apart in nature. Shaurya was a 20th century family and emotional person whereas Anamika was a 21st century independent and confident girl. She was seen as a bindaas girl by everyone including him. They were classmates but rarely talked, more because of distance he maintained with her as he always felt kind of scared of her bold personality. Anamika was dating Ashwini at that time.

Her world broke apart when she got to know that Ashwini was cheating on her and that too with her best friend. The loss of both her boyfriend and best friend was a lot for her to handle. All of sudden, she was alone in the world which seemed full of hypocrites in her eyes. But still she behaved normally in front of everyone. Everyone including Shaurya thought of her as a girl for whom career was most important and relationships were always secondary and thus she remained unaffected as she never valued people.

Post break-up, the first time she saw Ashwini and her best friend together in canteen holding hands In front of everyone, she slapped Ashwini and abused her best friend and walked out of that place. Everyone including Shaurya were left surprised to see her boldness and something made Shaurya to follow her. He saw her sitting at the corner of a park and crying her heart out. He could have never imagined a girl like her shedding a tear for a person, so seeing her crying was a shock to him. He went forward and quietly sat with her. He waited for her to say something. The first line she said “you are the first person ever to see me crying". 

From there on, they became good friends. The more he got to know the other person inside her, the more he fell in love with her. He realized that inside she was as vulnerable as everyone is but she pretended to be the strong girl in front of everyone. She believed by doing this helped her confidence and also tell the whole world that this girl is not for taking. She told him abt her ex-bfs and how important career was for her which made her to move on. He fell in love with that emotional side of her, the side that she accidently showed him during the time of her loneliness, the side which was on normal times overruled by her other strong career focused independent side.

She loved him but he loved her more than she did. For her he was her only friend, her best friend, her bf but she was still too focused to think anything more than that. For him, she was his world.

So one day when he asked her about their future, she told him that she never thought about it and it is not the right time for her to even think about it. He was looking for a commitment but she was not ready for that. They started having arguments from then on. It was having an impact on his personal life and on her professional life.

One day she gathered courage and told him bluntly that she did not love him that much to think about a future together so its best for him to leave her. Knowing the person he was, she was scared that he might break down. However, he smiled and said “you always asked me why i love you, i love you because of this. I love you the way you portray yourself as a strong individual in front of the world and hide that emotional person. I love you the way you just asked me to go away from your life without showing that doing this will hurt you also forever".

She pretended to ignore what he just said, turned and started walking away from him. He knew that she was crying right then but wont turn back to show her emotions for him. He knew that she would never come back to him again. He was smiling because he always knew that this was his destiny the day he fell in love with her and if given a chance he would do this again, he knew that he loved her truly, madly and deeply… 

P.S. seems am liking writing fiction these days - enjoying it more than writing diary entries :)