Shadows of the past

You can never run away from your past. Its like a shadow, which will follow you wherever you go. It does not matter how fast you run, how much you try to hide – it is going to stay with you forever.

There is only one solution – you learn to live with it. And the first step to do is to accept it. Accept it with the smile. No point in crying over what happened. What matters is what is happening now and what is going to happen in future.

I guess I have understood over the last few years that one can never run away from the past. I tried my level best – every time I felt I was done and over with it, it somehow managed to come up somehow someway. At first I used to get annoyed but with time I stopped reacting itself completely. And now the past is not a name, its more of a symbolic representation for some , a memory or comparison for others.

I don’t know why I keep coming to this topic. While writing this I had a déjà vu feeling that I wrote something similar some time back. Yeah, I was write – found a similar one (http://unknownrahul.blogspot.in/2011/09/just-let-it-go.html) .

Am not sure what happens after life. If it is that you get a chance to sit with everyone who were close to you over a cup of coffee in heaven – then its not that bad either. 

Why sooo serious

Around five years back, I remember I took pride in being a careless young guy. I was totally dependent on the people close to me, super happy and relaxed in my small little world. This is when I moved out for my first job to Infosys Mysore, and as always this is where I realized that life outside this small world is quite different (Oh yeah, as always it was this period of 2008-09 everything happened for the first time :D). Couple of close friends made me realize that I needed to become little serious in life.

Oh no, I did not become serious because of what they said to me. It was the circumstances back then that made me reflect on my life. I was a believer in god then and I took it in a way that may be god punished me because I was not a good guy. I did a self-introspection. I realized that my actions that I felt were harmless actually ended up hurting people around me. I realized that my overspending nature actually made other people feel bad and angry. I realized that my bad choice of words sometimes offended others.

So if today you feel that am too serious, I give a damn to what you think. I accept I am a serious guy. But that’s the way I am. I hope you understand that atleast because am a serious guy, you careless people are able to get away with stupidities because am around. I hope you understand that sometimes I end up saving money for you too else you would end up with debts. I hope you understand that I sometimes make you realize that using bad language can lead you to trouble.

I hope at best you understand that when you call me a serious guy and ask me to loosen up, I have the respect not to tell you that you are a careless person and its high time you get a bit serious.

The blurred faces

I have read it so many times – that life is a journey, you keep on walking. With time, I understood the essence of this statement. Life indeed is equivalent to a journey, a journey in which you walk with some milestone in your mind. On the way, you meet new people with similar or nearby destinations, so you walk with them. Sometimes for weeks, sometimes for months, sometimes even for years.

During this walk, you become friends with them. You get used to see them daily, talk with them daily, share your thoughts and feelings with them. But one fine day, one of you change their direction and you bid good bye to them. You promise to keep in touch.

However, the journey of life is not that easy. Sometimes, its due to the high demands of the new journey or sometimes its just that you make new companions in your new journey that you fail to keep in regular touch. With time, the faces you were so used to see everyday gets blurred, they start to fade.

I guess everyone goes through this phase at multiple points in their lives – when you finish school, college, shift jobs. It feels that you are losing a part of life. However, I guess its actually you are gaining a part of life. A part of life in which the people who actually matter are going to stay in touch and at the same point of time you get an opportunity to meet and add new people in that close circle.