Sab kuch alag hai Sab kuch nayaa hai

Every morning I wake up, open my eyes , the first reaction I have is where am I , its not my room , its not my home. Then, next second the realization of being in a new city sinks in. After that its normal day, same office routine. Till now I have spent most of my time in office, so haven’t seen much of the city except for normal shopping places like big bazaar and all.

Its almost two weeks now in Chennai and strangely I haven’t started hating the place. Even I am surprised by this. I think its more so because am having good time in office , it is hectic in office , have to spend weekends including Sundays too in office but I guess its better for me this way , by this  I don’t get time to even think of hating the city or cry over bad food .

Well I was told that I wont get good food here , so I was prepared for the worst. Surprisingly once in a while I do get decent food. I have found one north Indian restaurant owned by a Sardar , so I go there whenever I have time and today I had mast bhel puri.. mazaa aa gaya …delhi ki yaad aa gayi J

Then I was told that I will never get to see mast beautiful girls. Well I get to see three beautiful girls every day. But the only catch is they are models whose big poster is on the GRT jeweler showroom.

Other than that, the real count is 4 in 14 days. L

I was also told that the people here are not at all cooperating. Luckily I found good landlords and a fundoo house too.  But yeah the autowallahs here are not good. The way they drive , am very sure Rajnikant must have played a role of auto driver in some movie and they all are inspired by him. And then add to it , when I ask them “ you know English “ , they reply “ No English “ . Then my next question is “ Hindi aati hai “ , to this they always reply “ Hindi nahi maloom “ . Man, they are professional: D.

I had one big argument with an autowallah couple of days back , bahut sunaya usko maine :D . I doubt he understood even a bit of it though . J

I think the day I feel bad in office I will start feeling bad in this city too. Till then I can survive easily. I hope office life remains like the same as is now , these days I come home so tired that I have dinner and then am off to sleep max by mid night. And with this ends another day.

I hope you all are also having good time in office / college / business .

Take care

Beetein Lamhe

Chand Lamhaaat Ke Waaste Hi Sahi
Muskuraakar Mili Thi Mujhe Jindagi
Teri Aaghosh Mein Din The Mere Kate
Teri Baahon Mein Thi Meri Raate Kati
Aaj Bhi Jab Woh Pal Mujhko Yaad Aate Hai
Dil Se Saare Gamon Ko Bhula Jaate Hai
Dard Mein Bhi Yeh Lab Muskura Jaate Hai
Beete Lamhein Hamein Jab Bhi Yaad Aate Hai

Together they shared a dream. A dream to celebrate this date for many many years to come. A chance meeting turned that normal date in calendar to suddenly one of the most important date of life. He already planned 6 months in advance how to celebrate it first time, second time , on n on.

Life would have been living like a dream if things worked out that way. But then life is not a dream and things eventually don’t happen the way we plan. That’s what makes life life …right?

So the first year that date came both cried, not together , but separately somewhere ,their wasn’t even a contact that date and the next day both screamed at each other for not wishing yesterday.

Second year, he cried, he had no clue where she was. Eventually his heart won over his mind and he mailed her trying to initiate a conversation. Next one month, every time he opened his mail box with an anticipation of a mail from her side, he was disappointed. Finally, after couple of months he convinced himself not to wait further.

Well, with time you move on. How much impossible it may seem in beginning but with time like people change , things change , the feelings also change, it hurts less , the memories  get blocked somewhere in heart and mind.  So today just seeing the calendar, he realized that it’s the same date. As expected, the thought came but today it was just a passing thought. A smile came, a tear came and with it the date went. J

Everything seemed so perfect in the planning stage. But then life is not meant to be perfect, if its perfect its not life , it’s a dream. Therefore, the best thing is to feel good about the life we are living and see it as a dream rather than crying about the dreams that remained unfulfilled.

Well my favorite quote sums it completely -

Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans – John Lennon

19^th June 2011

Emotional Atyachar

Just couple of hours back I saw an episode of this reality TV show. A Girl did a loyalty test on her boyfriend. The guy failed it , the girl cried , then confronted the guy and slapped him , the guy also abused the girl , ajay devgan enters , gives some gyaan on relationships  , show over. Last week also similar thing happened but that time a guy did loyalty test on his girlfriend and she failed it.

These kind of reality TV shows amuses me a lot. They make relationships look so futile and worthless which is actually not the case. I believe the people who appear on these shows are either paid money for it or are just hungry for 2 minutes of fame on TV. Else I cant understand what’s  the point of doing all this, as by appearing on TV one is telling the whole world I had a bf/gf who in the end proved to be a cheat and I was with that person for so many years , how will the family of that person feel seeing their child on TV in such a kind of show.

One more point , in most of the episodes models are used who act as undercover agents. They are good looking n wear skimpy clothes and themselves start flirting with the guy. The guy is afterall a normal human being and falls for them . He doesn’t know he is being watched by hidden cameras and thus is caught.

Yes its wrong to flirt with a girl being in relationship but hey he didn’t start it , the girl approached him and eventually he fell for it , big enough reason for the girl to dump him?? May be Yes. But at same time I feel doing a loyalty test on him is big enough reason for the guy too to dump the girl. Trust is the basis of the relationship and by doing this stupid test the girl has just shown she doesn’t trust the guy  and I guess any guy who even clears this test if has some self respect will dump the girl. J

Until We Meet Again

Hey, am all set to go. I guess by the time you will read this I would be in Chennai. J

I don’t know but am not fond of the concept of last meet before going plus loads of last moment family commitments plus my niece birthday on Sunday were enough to keep me busy the entire weekend , hence could not meet any one of you.  

This post is dedicated to you all. Thanks a lot for everything. You guys are amazing. You all listen to my stupid thoughts and now for last couple of months are even reading my posts. Hats off to you all for tolerating me. J

I have learnt a lot from you all. Am really honored that you have trusted me and shared with me your life and thoughts and at same time, I feel very comfortable in sharing my life with you all. I hope it continues in future too and hopefully our work life will not make us so busy that we end up with no time for this.

Ok , lot of thanks done from my side , now an apology . Am not sure the person for whom this apology is for will read this but then I don’t have any other medium to say sorry, so please forgive me.

No no, its not my last post on blog :D . I have enjoyed writing here a lot and to add it your praise has motivated me to write more ( ya ya I know you praise me just because u have no other option :D ) .

 As per now I have a plan to come to Delhi on 27^th October for 4 days , hope to meet you all then and I hope some of you will also join me to watch the Formula 1 race in Noida during that weekend. J

All the very best to you all for both professional and personal life ahead. God bless you.

Miss you all

Loads of Love

Rauuulllll

My Education Safari

Wow… am an MBA…. I have seen my diploma so many times already in one week, I even got it laminated already ….  Its definitely one of the very special moment for me and my family , more so because no one expected me to go for graduation left alone post graduation. I surprised many including myself to go for it. Well in my dad words “ am the first boy to be a post graduate in whole of our khaandan and the first boy of my generation to even think of studying after 12^th :D .

When I look back , I myself can’t believe I was topper till 6^th standard. Oh yeah I was one of those kids who got  first rank almost every time  and cried like its end of world on getting 2^nd rank :D.

Then I went to Chennai , wooah .. was shocked to see how much the guys there studied. Even after getting 100 in mathematics , 90 in Hindi I  saw myself holding 5^th rank . After little bit of anlaysis I realized they are superhumans and they got 100 even in social studies . So after an year or so after consistently coming in top 10 I got used to being not a topper and started enjoying it also. No more worries about marks and ranks. But yeah that got bells ringing in my parents head they realized that “Rahul to gayaaa”..

So when in 9^th standard I came back to Delhi , it was then my sisters forced me to join tuitions thinking that my percentage will improve , oh yeah I got 78% in first term of 9^th standard , well nothing changed even after that except consistently getting more than 95 in Mathematics.

In 10th I faired decently, my sisters had scared me so much about board exams that I studied a lot. But just a month before board exams they both got married so I didn’t get to study much plus some bad luck in Hindi language paper, I ended up just above 80% .

Pheww...after that started the downfall. I fought a lot with my sisters to let me take commerce but then no one listened to me and I took science finally. Oh yeah I even enrolled for IIT prep , but all those classes about molecules, potential energy were like bouncers for me. I consistently failed in the FIITJEE tests and was just passing the school papers. Then after first term of 12^th, I realized if it goes on like this, I might fail in board exams too. So I went to my dad and told him about my thoughts. Oh yeah it was the first time ever I talked with dad about my studies. After that for next few months I took tuitions just for board exams . Nothing was improving much though, I failed in chemistry in pre board exams.

I still remember I was so scared when 12^th class result was about to come. Normally one is able to make it out expected percentage but I had no clue. I didn’t know if I made right molecule diagram in Chemistry or used the right formula in physics. I had lost trust in language papers after getting low marks in Hindi in 10^th. Finally result came and I got what I deserved, just little less than 80%.

I thought chalo khatam hua sab. Then suddenly had so many entrance tests lined up. I knew I wasnt good enough to clear the big tests like IIT, DCE, AIEEE , so I even gave Maharashtra, Karnataka and Punjab CET. Side by side I also filled Hotel Management  form, DU form( DU remains an unfulfilled dream L ) , bought CA form , NDA ,BCA form too with a hope that to clear atleast one of them. Oh yeah I had no clue what I wanted to do but my family was clear that engineering hi karvani hai ladke ko.

 Somehow I managed to clear IP paper. I remember after completing that paper I saw I had not attempted 30 continuous questions, so I marked all of them B thinking the laws of probability would be in my favor: D. Clearing that paper led to a BIG discussion at my home. I ruled out dropping a year to prepare for Engg Entrance , I told my parents and sisters that Its not my cup of tea. Then they told me DU no ways , CA no ways . So finally I thought let me go for engineering , college is in Delhi , 4 years  of fun.

Oh it was fun but scary. 4 years, all guys gang , I played cricket, table tennis , volleyball,football etc etc etc. I used to cram the figures of amplifiers and equations 2 days before paper. Everytime before paper I used to be very scared , so scared that I was not able to even drive car to the examination center. After every term there was atleast one paper in which I was sure to flunk. I still don’t know how I managed to clear Btech without a suppli (Grace marks saved me here  J ) .  The only thing I learnt in Btech was software coding. Oh yeah I think am good at it even today , it showed during my tenure at infy , I was among the toppers there during training. J

But luckily during Btech days I realized where my actual interest was. I understood I had a liking towards learning about the way things work in this world. So I started preparing for MBA but soon realized getting into good MBA college in India is tough. I tried finding an escape route and went to Australia and UK councils to find more about B schools there. However, I realized going there was waste of money as the returns were low.

So I gave CAT with optimism , got low percentile in first attempt ,somehow managed to get decent percentile in second attempt but still it wasn’t easy. Did miserably in GD/PI and was no where close to getting admission . Then suddenly I don’t know who smiled at me and I got a call from IMI one month after the college had opened. I wasn’t confident about myself performing in CAT next year so decided not to test my luck again and accepted the offer. Wow, MBA was almost exactly I wanted studies to be. I again started enjoying education , learnt a lot and had amazing time in college.

Sitting today I wonder what if I actually had been serious about my interest after 10^th standard and took up commerce. May be thing today would be little different and better, no regrets though , just a thought. J  Bas ab ek Executive MBA karne ka mann hai from abroad. :D

A Moment Of Madness

Has it ever happened that you did something and after some time realized I was better off not doing that? Or you laughed after some time realizing what you actually did an hour back and said to yourself wow I acted madly??

The character Joker in The Dark Knight rightly said “Madness is like gravity, All it takes is a little push!!! “ . Luckily most of the time, the madness we do is not that consequential , as in driving at speed of 120 kms per hr  or getting sloshed …  but sometimes a moment of madness do have serious repercussions.

Just couple of hour’s back I read a news report, a 21 year old was executed in China. On just reading the headline I was taken aback , the first thought that came in my mind “ aisa kya kar diya 21 saal ke ladke ne “. So I read the whole report , that guy belonged to a rich family , highly educated  , he had an accident in which a woman got injured , she noted down his car number and he in fear of being asked for compensation and police proceedings stabbed and killed her.

After reading it , I could not believe it . I mean a highly educated rich guy just for the fear of giving a woman compensation killed her. He was executed for this. Right or Wrong by China, that’s highly debatable and that debate is still on in my head. So am not commenting on this aspect. Oh yeah just one more point on this, he himself surrendered to police later on.

Nevertheless, think about what actually the guy did, it was a moment of madness, wasn’t it?  I mean if he knew that what he was about to do would have cost him his life , he and his family would have been  more than happy to give the lady any amount of money she wanted. Couple of days later he went to police and surrendered. Am not sure about the other aspects as in their were witness or not , but whatever the case be am sure in every country the first thing a lawyer says to his client is “ Do not accept the crime “ . That is the reason all the hi-fi cases take years in India , be it the Manu Sharma case or salman khan hit and run case , sanjay dutt role in 93 bomb blasts etc.  But that guy surrendered, accepted his fault , pleaded for little bit of mercy , but he got none. He was executed.  He wasn’t a serial killer or a terrorist , what he did was inhuman , a moment of madness costed him his life.

May be one can say that he acted immaturely , a 21 year old kid got scared and in fear did that , but may be he was too much an arrogant person , he belonged to a rich family and had that kind of attitude where he felt he was the king of China. I don’t know what is right or wrong in this, but what I know is that it is important to always think before doing anything, you never know what a moment of madness can cost you in future. Think before drinking and then driving , think before hurting someone , think before saying anything , above all before doing something  just ask yourself once can I tell my parents about it ? You will surely get a clear YES or NO .

A little bit of ME

Sometimes the world leaves me confused. There are days it makes me feel as a kind of inferior person, I feel like that am the only mere human being in this world and rest everyone is reincarnated Jesus Christ. Moreover, the day I do a good thing the world says that I pretend to be one among them kinda Jesus Christ.

But I actually enjoy being a human being  and all the weakness and feelings of jealousy, anger, disappointment etc which are gifted to me for being a human apart from doing once a month some good deed.

Oh yeah, I feel all of the positive and negative emotions and I don’t mind showing it.

So if someone did anything wrong to me, I still remember it and if given a chance will love to take revenge in future. I have done this in past and somewhere I feel little proud of it. I don’t believe much in forgiving. :D

So if someone is doing better than me professionally I feel jealous but at same time I use it to motivate myself to do better. Oh yeah side by side I even make some reasons in my mind like it is due to luck/destiny etc just to make myself feel better.

So if I see a couple walking in a mall I feel disappointed, oh no not because I want that girl walking to be with me, its more so because I miss that feel of happiness of those long walks . I don’t mind admitting it , as its true.

So if I am feeling sad I do cry , oh yeah even guys cry , n some1 like me cries a lot, this year count till now is 2.

So if I have something to say I say it , I love speaking my mind and heart out. Yes I have been called blunt many times , some put it in a better way by calling me straightforward .

So if I care for you then I show it, because I don’t want to lose you and want you to know it . Here suddenly some start feeling that am being kinda Jesus Christ and call me fake or flirt etc etc.  Well I said na there is a small nice guy in me so you are lucky that you got a chance to meet him. :D

So if I am happy I call or text all of my close friends to share it .  ( Atleast I don’t put it on FB for others to like :D ) .

I don’t know if anyone else feel the same but I have assumed  over a period of time that a normal human being is ought to feel these kind of emotions. So I tell myself that am a normal happy self proud Human being . J