Unfriend

The word “Unfriend” was named the word of the year by Oxford dictionary in 2009. Unfriend was defined as a verb that means to remove someone as a "friend" on a social networking site such as Facebook.

It clearly shows how the virtual world has become a kind of communicator to the people who are actually a part of your real world. I have read in newspapers many times in past year or so with some people claiming that they got to know of being dumped by their partner only when they saw their online relationship status. Wow, isn’t it cool as in that is a easy way of calling it quits. No listening to abuses or crying, just a change in status online to signal to the whole world that am available again. :D

I have also been at the receiving end of this term “Unfriend” . No no, I haven’t been dumped online but I have been unfriended and also been blocked a few times in past 2 years. Naah, am not telling the exact number but thankfully it is in single digits only.  :D Reasons were quite bad , fall out or a fight in most of the cases that had meant zero talking. However this new step of “Unfriend” was taken by the others that shows I was strong enough to face them still. J God bless them all.

Maintaining the virtual world had become quite a task for me now. I rarely find time to blog  , its maximum of 1 or 2 posts every weekend. Then I do like to know about what is happening in my friends lives, but it got difficult to go through 1000 or more pending most recent updates. Then again it had become really difficult to see who all of the people I talk to (or other way around people who do find time to talk to me J ) are online on gtalk and FB.

Therefore, I found a fundoo way out. I spent around half an hour yesterday. Went through all my FB friend list and selected the few people whom I wish to follow and added them in a list and tadaaa now everynight when I come online I have very few updates. Thankfully now I don’t have to read the updates like “ XYZ is feeling happy that ABC is back home “ , “ABC is feeling lonely” . God , if you are feeling lonely or you are happy then savor/hate the moment , don’t put it on FB.

Ditto I did with gtalk, now my gtalk list has at a given point of time only 4-5 friends online, not around 40-50 as earlier.

There are other avenues open to converse for me with others and viceversa, like phone, FB message and gmail, which I guess have become secondary modes of communication nowadays. Therefore, I guess nothing bad about what I did. J

Wow, its not difficult to maintain life in virtual world now . J

Steps for next week, update linkedin profile and also FB profile. Need to change my current location from Delhi. L

Dreams Limited

One thing that fascinated me about the movie Inception was that what if we could control our dreams. Every night we would have good dreams and wake up in morning with a smile.

I guess some of the dreams which will make me smile are : am a football player , then driving formula 1 car , then settled down happily in Delhi , romantic dates , enjoying life with friends.

I always have had a belief that what we see in dreams is not actually what we want but they are somewhere related to what we think or do the entire day. I do not know how much this is true but atleast it happens with me. I remember there was a time when the only dreams I had were related to sports, then there was a time when the dreams/nightmares were related to a girl , then there was time when I used to do software coding even in dreams. These all were related to what work or what was happening in my life that period.

So I guess I can say that the dreams we see are somewhere related to what is happening in life. Dreams are not actually what we dream of.

And this brings me to the dreams I have these days. As expected they are related to work. The good thing is that it means that I don’t think about any other things in life, and my whole day goes in work in office. The sad thing is that somewhere it means there is nothing else happening in my life, nothing exciting. I think for past 2-3 years I had got used to something happening or the other and now strangely am not getting used to a peaceful life. :D

Am not sure what I actually want , a peaceful life or some twist. Hopefully whatever will happen , will happen for good. J

And everything stopped for a moment

He was confused. The devil inside him wanted to abuse and kill her but somehow the god inside him still controlled him. He understood her so well that he decided to do what she desired but never said explicitly.

It was Monday morning. He thought of going directly to her office but then decided otherwise. Therefore, he called her to say that he is in the city and wish to meet. Her reply was a bullet straight through the heart, she said she will try to catch up during the weekend but not sure.

He made a fool of himself but decided to miss his office and wait until the weekend. Finally, it happened, the moment for which he had been waiting for long. There she was standing in front of him. He have had this moment at least 100 times in his dreams and was ready with each and every line he wanted to say. Still the moment got better of him. He was standing in front of her speechless.

She walked towards him normally, hugged him for about 10 seconds and as always said with smile ‘I love you’. He was left amused thinking how on earth she could just tell these words so casually without meaning even a bit of them. He didn’t reply and just opened the car door for her.  She asked him why he came back and what’s the matter about which he wanted to talk. He wanted to see guilt in her eyes so asked her to wait till the time he drives to a place where they can sit peacefully and talk. In between, she had a small call from a guy and she told him about her whereabouts.

After reaching to the very same place where they went for first time, with a tear in his eye he asked her what has gone wrong in last one month. She behaved as if nothing went wrong. To this he got angry and raised his voice asking her it again.

She started in the most common way out by a girl saying that 'you are a very good guy and I feel you deserve someone better than me , you don’t deserve a bad girl like me etc etc.'

He have had enough of these answers in last one month so he looked straight into her eyes and told her,'we always had been completely transparent and honest with each other and requested her to be the same now.' She shed couple of tears and told him that with time, feelings have changed and she doesn’t feel the same closeness and love anymore. His heart was broken but he didn’t want to show his weak side to her anymore. He felt as if his world came to an end and didnt feel like to talk more with her. All the questions he had in his mind suddenly seemed worthless to even find answers.

She again got a call from someone. He could make out that its time for her to go. They walked together to car parking. He knew it was the last time they were meeting. So when he expressed his thought to her , she laughed and said that he is over reacting. But he was absolutely sure of it.

The last two minutes they were together got too emotional for him to handle. The hope was still inside him that she might suddenly change her mind , suddenly she might realize that things between them were coming to end and the fear of losing him which she always had was close to becoming reality.

But nothing happened like that. As always in her cute way she looked in his eyes with confidence, gave him a kiss on cheek and hugged him. The hug which was meant to be for few seconds went about for about a minute. He hugged her tight and left her only when she said that its getting late.

He had a tear in his eye which was very much visible to her. She ignored it and said ‘I love you , bye’. She knew he wasn’t going to reply , so turned her back and started walking towards metro station.

He waited there till the time he could see her. Again it was a stupid hope that she might come back to him. What happened after that is history.

Strangely love creates such stupid hopes that sometimes one goes into a stage of split personality where in he tries to convince himself that it actually has ended but at same time finds answer to suggest that its too early to give up.

Sunday : A small goal in life

When I was a kid, I always looked forward to Sundays to watch my and every child favorite shows Chandrakanta, duck tales, talespin and above all Jungle Book in morning and then to play cricket in evening till it was so dark to see ball. Monday morning walking to school was such a bad feeling, a big bag with 8 notebooks (one for each period) and equal number of books. Getting scoldings for not doing homework properly and then being dumped with more homework. I never understood why teachers dumped us with so much homework for Sunday, common Sunday is supposed to be holiday for we little children to enjoy and have a good time at home.

I was looking forward for a change and somewhere I had a feeling things will be different in college.

Then came college. It was fun during weekdays but then weekends were more fun. Yeah there were no shows to watch on Sunday mornings but Cricket was still there. :) Oh yeah even during my college (Btech) days we guys played cricket. There was one more rule that was supposed to be followed in addition to all cricket rules. No one will talk on phone during the match; everyone was supposed to tell his girlfriend not to disturb on Sunday morning. Am not kidding, we did that actually.

In MBA, first year there was no Sunday. Never got time off to look forward to Sunday. Life was hectic, rarely got time to go home even. Second year almost every day was Sunday. There wasn’t anything to look forward to , no challenge , no workload. Just kept waiting for college to end and to begin professional life.

Now In professional life, its still the same weekends which I look forward to, Saturday and Sunday, two days off. No homework, no tension. The only difference is that weekdays move so fast in office. Day before yesterday it suddenly occured to me that wow just one more day and then again its weekend. Called up a friend then itself and made Saturday evening plan. Life is moving fast thankfully.

Sometimes I wonder if nothing interesting every happened in my life or I never set any other goal except for a SUNDAY. Whatever, I love Sundays :) :).