Anamika

  Jab tak saans hai,

     tab tak ek aas hai,

     Kahi to hogi wo,

     jiski mujhe talaash hai.

     Ek chehra jo dhundla sa dikhai deta hai,

     ek aawaz jo aahat si sunai padti hai,

     khwabon mein jo aati hai,

     kahi to uski bhi ek buniyad hai.

         

     Mat de aur sitam khuda mere,

     kahi to tujhe bhi ye yaad hai,

     maangta hu tujhse roz usse,

     haar raha tujhpar se mera vishwaas hai.

     kar raha hu intezaar jiska,

                                                              aaj bhi uska ek ehsaas hai

                                                              na jaane kyu nahi maanta ye dil,

                                                              shayad isika naam pyaar hai.


- Rauuullll
 26-09-11

Love for Life

No  no , am not talking about any girl. Am talking about football and music. :D

These two am sure will stay my love for life. Music is something that really cheers me up and football is something about which I can endlessly talk.

And now living in Chennai, these two are the only things which keeps me busy and happy for the time I don’t work in office. My day starts with alarm which is a song that wakes me up by 6 30 am. Next hour I spend getting ready whilst laptop plays my favorite songs. I get into the car and first thing I do is to set up my music system. Rest of the day I spend in office working.

But at same time am excited about the weekend. Because football matches happen at weekend. Have found many EPL fans in office and its fun to discuss with them the happenings in the league, take a dig at each other’s favorite team, though the banter is not upto the level it was in college.

Its not just because of this I love football and music. Somewhere I realize that I have made friends also because of my love for football and music. After end of Btech , everyone moved on to different cities for work and got busy in their lives. But everyone missed the football talks and used to get in touch on Monday to discuss the football weekend matches. Well Guys are Guys. J

And music, I never expected but music has played a big role in my life till now. Somehow I always feel the choice of music explains a bit about an individual personality and more often than not have seen it come true. Some of the best moments in my life I remember the song being played in the background and as always no long drive is possible without music.

Am not sure what passion means, everyone has different interpretation for it . But if it means something which you want to have and do for life then definitely music and football are the ones for me.

In My Memories

With time, tears will definitely stop rolling down the eyes. However to live life, eventually one needs to make an effort to smile.

Take today’s date and try to remember how your life was on this date in 2010, 2009, 2008. Not that difficult I guess. A little bit of thought on this and you will know if your life is moving in right direction.

I do this, quite often. Not intentionally, it just occurs to me time to time. Like it happened today. I remember a year ago this date I was excited and busy planning my future, deciding what career path I wish to take. 2009 First term exams in college, life was super hectic and bad. I wasn’t sure where life was actually moving both personally and professionally. 2008 I was actually in the best phase of my life. I can term that time as “Perfect “both personally and professionally. Was about to start my first job and was about to rise in love which finally was a big fall. 2007 seventh semester of Btech , had three jobs in hand , was having great time playing all kind of sports with friends.

So stupidly if I try to plot it in graph ( I guess my job has made me analyze everything with charts and graphs) , if 2007 was good  then 2008 was great. 2009 surely the lowest point in graph. 2010 the curve had again a positive slope.

Now comes the main question. Can I say September 17,2011 the curve is still heading north. Strangely, Mind says YES, heart says NO. That means professionally kinda yes, am happy with the way things are turning up. But personally a Big No. Away from family, living single life, its not that great.

I miss my life the way it was this very date in 2008 and if given a chance am ready to go back in time to this very date in 2008 and start again from there.  I have heard many people say they have no regrets about what has happened in past but I do have and I feel those people just lie because they are afraid to accept it.

The only good thing about the mistakes I did is that I have learned from them. Atleast I don’t repeat my mistakes. And I remember those golden days in 2008 with a smile.

I suggest you guys give it a shot and try to remember where you were this date last 4-5 years and do you miss something or are you very much happy with where you are right now. A simple thing to do , will take 10 minutes but I do believe will make you smile and feel good about life.

Just Let it Go

“pa pa pa pa...pa ra ra ra ra ra ra ra ra ra !!!!! “

Season 4 Episode 6. That is what I just finished of “How I met your Mother “. Oh, ya finally am watching this series. Credit goes to one of my friend, she talked so much about it that finally I started watching it. Initially I was reluctant to it thinking that it will be just another romantic series but no it is actually fun to watch.

 One of the reasons because of which I didn’t want to watch it has actually got justified. I always thought watching such a series will make me try to link some part of my life with it. And now as I am on season 4 I can definitely say YES.

So this Episode actually has made me write this one. Had a déjà vu feeling watching  this one. Here Ted talks about how to deal with a break up . There are three options : 1) Swallow your anger 2) Throw it on someone’s face and 3) Just let it go.

Third option at first thought sounds so impractical. How can one just forget what happened. One keeps looking to just burst out at the other person or stay in pain till the time the anger goes down. But here I do agree when Ted said that the third option if implemented actually helps you get out of it and then move on with life in a good and happy way.

There cant be any other good way other than to forget something which we know is not going to work out. No point in crying what we are sure is not going to come back. The best way to see it as Ted had thought of a line to say to her  ( * with some of my words added ) “ Its not me who is going to lose out on something , You have just made the biggest mistake of your life” .

The Real Act

“Life is a stage and we all are actors “

I always had the desire to watch live plays (theatre) . And I shared that desire with her, so we decided to watch it together. Alas, it never happened. Every time I crossed that road near CP where there is theatre, it reminded me of her and the promise.

After that, I planned it with college friends to go and watch it. However, some plans die as plans. It never really happened. But I decided I will definitely watch a play this year.

Now in Chennai, there is nothing to do on weekends. Seriously, there is one good mall Express Avenue and on weekends its crowded like crazy. Seems almost half of Chennai is in that mall. People come up with their super extended families (parents, kids, distant cousins) and walk in the mall for hours. And if you want to watch a movie in Chennai on Saturday or Sunday, you have to book ticket by Wednesday, oh no by Tuesday night 2 am (online ticket opens Tuesday midnight ) . I tried once Wednesday morning before going to office and the show was houseful.

As it’s said everything happens for good, so when I asked a local friend “IS there anything to do on weekends “, then she told me that the concept of live theatre is quite popular here. And wow when I searched it online, I found it is true indeed. So two months I have been here in Chennai, I have watched 3 plays and stand up comedies. Its fun and I really enjoyed watching live theatre.

Next month am going for the fourth one, have booked tickets for it. It will be second time am going to watch Naseeruddin Shah live on stage. Incidentally, the first play ever I watched was his only. His presence on stage is phenomenal.

If you never have watched live theatre then I recommend atleast try it once. It is worth an experience.

Aahatein ho rahi teri

Another song added to the  list of my favorites :) . Its by Agnee.

Aahatein, ho rahin teri,
Dil ke dar pe mere,
Tu yahin hai kahin na kahin.
Aahatein, ho rahin teri,
Dil ke dar pe mere,
Tu yahin hai kahin.

Kabhi mere khwab sa,
Kabhi uljhe jawaab sa,
Ke chanda mein bhi daag sa,
Mere jaisa tu.
Ke dariya ka ho ik sira,
Ke armaano ka silsila,
Ke sehra mein bhi aab sa,
Mere jaisa tu, mere jaisa tu.

Aahatein, ho rahin teri,
Dil ke dar pe mere,
Tu yahin hai kahin na kahin.


Tera hoon main, tujhe kyon na yaqeen hai!
Chaahat mein meri aakhir kya kami hai?
Tujhme hi toh chhupi meri khudi hai.
Meri khudi kuch na sahi.
Kuch na sahi, Kuch na sahi.

Aahatein, ho rahin teri,
Dil ke dar pe mere,
Tu yahin hai kahin.

Kabhi mere khwab sa,
Kabhi uljhe jawaab sa,
Ke chanda mein bhi daag sa,
Mere jaisa tu.
Ke tu hi dariya ka he ik sira,
Ke armaanon ka silsila,
Ke sehra mein bhi aab sa,
Mere jaisa tu, mere jaisa tu.

Aahatein, ho rahin teri,
Dil ke dar pe mere,
Tu yahin hai kahin na kahin.