And I keep on walking….

"There's a place far away...I wanna be there some day"....

As expected (http://unknownrahul.blogspot.in/2012/12/another-yearanother-step.html) 2013 is turning out to be an year to remember. I believe am moving in the right direction. I am not scared to walk alone though am blessed to have someone walking with me, holding my hand and trusting the direction am taking. The journey though difficult is definitely a memorable one….

With time, I understood how important it was to experience failure in life, how important it was to see bad times, how important it was to be alone. At the same time I understand that how critical it was to learn from all that and gather strength to get up and start walking again.

Life is not dull if you have some goal, life is not dull if you have a clear priority in life. Life is not dull even though you have to walk alone in achieving that goal. But yes life is beautiful if there is someone walking with you sharing the same goal.

When I close my eyes, I visualize where I want to be….I know that place is far away right now….but I know that I want to be there some day….and I trust myself that I will make it there one day…..and I trust that I will not be alone when I reach there….

Time for Self Introspection ???

Its strange but everytime I feel am in control of the situation and I have learnt the lessons and am not going to repeat a mistake, I end up learning a new lesson.

So when this year started I said to myself, Rauuullll don’t worry you wont remember this year as another year of stupid mistakes/miscommunications etc. But I guess things are not going the way I thought.

There are times in life when you end up thinking “ Common, am tired and sick of learning the lessons”. But then life is amazing, it throws up new cards everytime.

Just saw an episode of How I met your mother after a long long time , past 3 months had been so crazy that I even forgot about how I much loved this series  and watched it with so much excitement. Neways I loved the line he said in one of the episodes, I guess its in S07E20 when he realizes that everytime he thinks about how he sees his life in 3 years and ends up realizing he always fails in achieving that , he says “ May be then something is wrong with me”.  (P.S. Strangely  I felt a sense of comfort on seeing Ted still struggling to find the right girl…haha )

But on a serious note, I guess this episode made me think that even I might be doing something wrong , may be assuming a lot of things in office/personal life because of which I end up in a hole.

May be its time for some self-introspection. May be its not wrong to point finger at myself not others. J

Just Let it Go

“pa pa pa pa...pa ra ra ra ra ra ra ra ra ra !!!!! “

Season 4 Episode 6. That is what I just finished of “How I met your Mother “. Oh, ya finally am watching this series. Credit goes to one of my friend, she talked so much about it that finally I started watching it. Initially I was reluctant to it thinking that it will be just another romantic series but no it is actually fun to watch.

 One of the reasons because of which I didn’t want to watch it has actually got justified. I always thought watching such a series will make me try to link some part of my life with it. And now as I am on season 4 I can definitely say YES.

So this Episode actually has made me write this one. Had a déjà vu feeling watching  this one. Here Ted talks about how to deal with a break up . There are three options : 1) Swallow your anger 2) Throw it on someone’s face and 3) Just let it go.

Third option at first thought sounds so impractical. How can one just forget what happened. One keeps looking to just burst out at the other person or stay in pain till the time the anger goes down. But here I do agree when Ted said that the third option if implemented actually helps you get out of it and then move on with life in a good and happy way.

There cant be any other good way other than to forget something which we know is not going to work out. No point in crying what we are sure is not going to come back. The best way to see it as Ted had thought of a line to say to her  ( * with some of my words added ) “ Its not me who is going to lose out on something , You have just made the biggest mistake of your life” .

Happiness

“Happiness is a state of mind “

I am a kind of person whose mood is always in extremes. Either am in a very happy mood or in a saddy saddy mood . I don’t know why but there is always something or the other running in my mind.

But last month I realized something. I realized that my mind was actually controlling me a lot in the sense that it wasn’t allowing me to be happy. It was always making me think about things which were not in my control and thus making me feel sad about it.

Two things which always make me go in depression are when someone close to me hurts me or is in trouble. Second thing when am in deep trouble inspite of doing nothing wrong. Last month strangely I faced both. I wasn’t sure how to get out of it. I was angry over myself that these are last couple of months for me with my family and friends here and am spoiling these days for someone and something which is not under my control. Add to it, I was sure I did nothing wrong.

But my mind wasn’t allowing me to take control. I decided its time I fight for my happiness. I made it think about the good things happening in my life. I started telling myself that its one of the best phases of my life. Am close to realizing my big dream of MBA , in couple of months I will be working in financial world, am blessed with great family and friends who are always there with me and love me a lot,dugdug is sitting by my side for a change showing his concern etc etc.

It took me couple of days but I succeeded in clearing my mind and with it I learnt a lesson.

Happiness is actually a state of mind. My life will never be perfect. At max it can be “ Almost perfect “  and I will always be striving to make it perfect . But the human nature is such that everytime I get something I will start asking for more or crying why I don’t have this or that in my life.

So it is upto me either to cry for that missing thing in my life or be happy about the other important things which am blessed with today.

Right now, I can list down 4-5 things that I don’t have and I want them badly. I can cry for them and feel sad. But I have decided , I will work harder for the things which are in my control and things which are not in my control I am not going to cry for them and happily give time to time to forget them.

Since that day every day I wake up , I say to myself “ It’s going to be another great day today “ . I sleep saying to myself “Yeah I had a great day “. J J

I wish I can keep this attitude for life. J