Someday Someway

I have heard it many times from different people, “ Rauuullll you should not have done that , its not good to be bad to people.” They told me three steps if someone do wrong to you: forgive them, move on and forget what happened. However am not still not convinced about it.

Forgive others :  I agree, forgiveness is a great human deed but for that the other person should atleast apologize. I am not a saint to forgive someone just like that. If there is god and he is watching everything he should know that XYZ has been wrong to me and I cant forgive him and I deserve to see someone doing exactly the same wrong thing with XYZ . Oh yeah only then I can forgive him.

Move on : Aah sounds so simple.  How can I ? What will I answer to the person I see in mirror everyday. Will I say that “ Oh yeah someone played with my life , it still affects me day in and day out but am trying to move on “ . Common , that is not Rauuullll.

Forget what happened : My brain is not a hard drive that I can erase the memories. Add to it its in my genes to remember things with accuracy to the date. I cant help it.

I don’t believe in the philosophy of being good to everyone. I believe be good to good people and then good will happen to you. I have been bad to people in the past , and I want to be bad to a few people in future for sure.  I don’t have any feeling of guilt in saying that am just waiting for a day when their time will be up and my time will start.

Give me a break.Am a normal human being, not a Jesus Christ. So I should behave like a normal human being and that for me means to slap the other person harder in reply to a slap.And am sure the day some normal human being  plays with the life of these so called saints on earth , they will also turn into normal human beings. Till then stay away from me.