The little break

Oh yeah – finally I gifted myself a break of 48 hours. A break from what all is happening around me (some good and some not that good). I had promised myself one in June (http://unknownrahul.blogspot.in/2013/05/tham-jaa-zindagi.html) but it never happened. I went home once after that in July to give myself a break but things did not go as planned then. I ended up in delhi for around 10 days but never got a moment to relax then. And to make matters worse I could not go home on Rakhi as I had taken lot of leaves in July itself. Anyways, sometimes things like these happens J.

Its an extended weekend and I am happily lazing around, staying alone at home – no human presence around me. I think 3 posts in the last 2 days sum up the weekend for me. J I am watching movies (watched K3G 100^th time), formula 1 race, big bang theory etc etc etc. Plus connected with a lot of people after a long time. So in all happy happy lazy weekend.

But yes at the back of my mind there are lot of thoughts analysis going on. I am trying my best to avoid them and somewhere have been successful. I wish there was some way to switch off mind temporarily and just do what your heart wants. :D

P.S. One more song added in my list during the weekend, relatively old song but I have started liking it now – Ishq vala Love from a stupid and idiotic movie Student of the Year

In your shoes

Many people call me too mature for my age. They say that I am a serious kind of guy, I need to get little loose (not in character :P) in my life and let life take its own course rather than me trying my hard to control it. One strength which a lot of my friends appreciate a lot is that I am a good listener and apparently give good advice and motivate people to excel in their lives. Above all, they know that I am not going to tell about our discussion to anyone – they know I will never let down on this. J

Well, I don’t know how much truth is in all this but since it’s a large number of people who say this so am more than happy to believe in this except for that serious and mature kind of guy. :D

How I give advice? Its very simple. I just put myself in the other person’s shoes and start to think of what I would have done in that situation – what are the problems I will face in that situation, what will be the pros and cons of the solution I am suggesting. The one thing which I take care is that I don’t end up suggesting a solution or path that should be taken (specially in case of romantic issues :D). I just give all the possible paths and let the other person decide the final path.

There are very few people to whom I go for a advice. Frankly most of the times I end up discussing things with myself only. I believe its not because of I don’t have people around me with whom I feel I can discuss, its just may be my introvert nature when it comes to my personal life. I think my experience in past has made me very cautious to discuss about my life with other people except for very few close friends and obviously family.

P.S. I think the credit for my listening quality deserves to go to the women in my life (starting from my two elder sisters to my female friends, they have never allowed me to speak much till now L )

I, me and myself

The best quality that you can have is to understand yourself. That allows you to take control of yourself when things are not going right. It allows you to ensure that things don’t get worse.

I guess everyone tries to do that. But not many succeed, because they don’t understand themselves, they don’t understand what situation they are in and hence they fail to realize what is needed to be done to get out of it.

Am glad that somewhere am not in that league of people. I am a good friend of myself. I am not scared to face the situation, I don’t try to run away from it. I am able to understand my mood and adjust to it accordingly. Say for e.g. if I am in an angry/furious mood I try not to communicate much with other people. If am in a sad mood, then I try to find some activity to give my mind a break.

But sadly yes sometimes the situation do get better off me and things get little out of hand. And what I hate about this the most is that because of me other people get affected. I guess I lose myself during these times and get into a kind of mode where I don’t care about anyone else, Its just I, me and myself.

Thankfully these kind of moments have been very rare in my life and hopefully I don’t get to face them more in future. 

Its my DREAM

There is a dialogue in one of my favorite films ‘The pursuit of happyness’ – “You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it. Period."

The movie and this specific scene has always been one of my biggest inspirations. Whenever am feeling demotivated or let down, I start watching this movie. It brings a tear in my eyes everytime I watch this movie but at the same time it motivates me. It reminds me that Rauuullll no matter what happens, no matter whoever says what, don’t let your dreams die (http://unknownrahul.blogspot.in/2011/03/dreams.html). Don’t let anyone ruin it. Don’t let anyone try to change it. Above all, don’t let anyone take away your belief in that very dream. In the end, its my DREAM and I have the right to pursue it.

I don’t know how achievable my dreams are, I don’t know how realistic my vision is. But I know one thing that I will enjoy pursuing it and may be that is what it is all about. At least I will always have the satisfaction that I PROTECTED MY DREAM !!!!!

The feeling of helplessness

I hate this feeling – the feeling where am helpless, am not able to control the situation around me, I cant do anything to make things better, I don’t know how I can work my way out. I am just sitting, sitting and sitting with a hope that things will eventually fall in place. I hate this feeling – its PATHETIC. To complicate the situation – my mind do a wonderful job. It keeps on thinking and reminding me about all this.

One thing I fail at badly is to pass time in these kind of situations. I am terrible at this despite trying my real hard. I do try to keep my mind away from all this by either going out with friends, watching a movie etc etc but subconsciously my mind and heart is still in that situation. I am not able to get out of it unless am actually out of it.

I don’t know how others are able to deal with these kind of situations. I fail to do it, if you know me well, one look at my face and you can easily make out that something is wrong. I don’t know how to deal with it. I think its down to the fact that somehow I have lost patience in life which I had in abundance when I was a kid. Now its like if I want something at some point of time, I go after it badly and try to get it at any cost. I don’t like to wait specially for others.

Seems like I have lot to work out and improve in this aspect. Otherwise this pathetic feeling will keep on getting on my nerves in future too. DAMN!!!!!!

Mera number bhi aayega

I have been a proponent of the theory of relativity only if its used in the right way in life – i.e. to motivate yourself (http://unknownrahul.blogspot.in/2011/04/theory-of-relativity.html). Things go wrong if you start treating it in a negative way. Things go worse if you let it affect you. Then there is no way out.

No matter how much I believe in this, in the end sometimes I also do get affected by this. Sometimes, it makes me wonder what is it which is not letting me realize my potential whilst the world is moving ahead than me. Sometimes it do make me feel jealous of others. Sometimes it makes me irritated and frustrated. A few times it makes me cry too.

It is here where I think I start to lose the plot and the situation and life takes a u-turn. Normally most of the times its my family and close friends who come to rescue but strangely I guess I have found one more rescuer, and very strangely its my own blog, the random thoughts which I wrote couple of years back. 

Reading the old posts remind me about what I stood for in the past , what I wanted to achieve in my life and most importantly how I wanted to walk the path. I guess today is the first time I actually have found the real purpose of what made me start blogging and how it will remain a part of my life till the last day.

P.S. http://unknownrahul.blogspot.in/2011/03/happiness.html made me understand and write this post.

The balance in life

I think we all struggle with this – the right balance in life. We all struggle to juggle between our professional and personal life. You want to be there in both – but only a few are lucky to have that. Rest just keep on trying to keep the balance.

Most of the times, your mind is on the professional side but your heart is on the other. It’s a constant fight – of what to do next. Should I make an effort, should I make a compromise or should I leave it all and do what the heart wants. Or should I listen to my mind and give everything more time.

I remember the first time I faced this situation was as expected the famous 2008-09 debacle. Then I listened to my heart, I think one of the most courageous decisions I ever took in my life and the most correct one too. It was an inevitable situation. Thinking of that situation is enough to send shivers down my spine. But that was a one off situation which I hope I never face again.

I think sometimes a compromise is the right solution for some time. A drastic step might not help – you might feel good for a day or a month or a year but later on you might end up regretting it for life. The best way out is to strive for the best, do all the hard work to get the right balance and a better future both personally and professionally. In the end, if you actually put in the efforts to get the right balance between both, you will definitely succeed.

Why am I writing this all, what am I referring to, even I don’t know. I guess may be am beginning to feel the side effects of lack of balance in life or may be it’s a cluttered mind creation. Who knows….