I hate this feeling – the feeling where am helpless, am not able to control the situation around me, I cant do anything to make things better, I don’t know how I can work my way out. I am just sitting, sitting and sitting with a hope that things will eventually fall in place. I hate this feeling – its PATHETIC. To complicate the situation – my mind do a wonderful job. It keeps on thinking and reminding me about all this.
One thing I fail at badly is to pass time in these kind of situations. I am terrible at this despite trying my real hard. I do try to keep my mind away from all this by either going out with friends, watching a movie etc etc but subconsciously my mind and heart is still in that situation. I am not able to get out of it unless am actually out of it.
I don’t know how others are able to deal with these kind of situations. I fail to do it, if you know me well, one look at my face and you can easily make out that something is wrong. I don’t know how to deal with it. I think its down to the fact that somehow I have lost patience in life which I had in abundance when I was a kid. Now its like if I want something at some point of time, I go after it badly and try to get it at any cost. I don’t like to wait specially for others.
Seems like I have lot to work out and improve in this aspect. Otherwise this pathetic feeling will keep on getting on my nerves in future too. DAMN!!!!!!